A gentle reminder: you don’t need to tell yourself that “YOU CAN DO IT” to motivate you to do new and/scary things because, if you think about it,  YOU’VE ALREADY DONE IT! yes beliveve me! think to all the things you already have accomplished in your life! yes,  right now: list 3 of them before you continue reading. – – – and for each “item” on your list remember: – how had you felt right before? (… afraid? anxyous? hopeless? ) YOU C̶A̶N̶ D̶O̶ ALREADY DONE IT! – and then what happened? let me guess…. you either succeeded  or fail. and in each case it was good to take action! if you 1)  succeeded, good for you 2)  didn’t succeed, you learned a lesson!! so now do you know what I mean? YOU GOT THIS! of course when I write:  “you don’t need to tell yourself that “YOU CAN DO IT” to motivate you” I should write “I don’t need to tell myself “YOU CAN DO IT” to motivate me” because I’m the one that has to remember this: new things are scary (yes you can do new things even at 44 years old) but “scary will never stops me” .  and like the Pope of us (the nerds) , Neil Gaiman, would say:  “Being brave doesn’t mean you aren’t scared. Being brave means you are scared, really scared, badly scared, and you do the right thing anyway.” ― Neil Gaiman, Coraline right? RIGHT. and this message is so importante for me that I’ve made myself a cool Pennant. and I thought that you might want it to, so here’s for you and for your courage! you can find it in my store.  and I’ve Made this to uplift any room with a touch of Queernessssss Each pennant comes with a wooden dowel for easy hanging. They’re lightweight and highly durable for decor that looks stunning in the long run. and it’s printed ON DEMAND by a quality provider that will also accomplish the shipping, and for this reason I can’t offer a personalized shipping price if you buy different items from my shop. BUT, also for this reason, I’m keeping my marge low so that the total price of the cool item will be still largely  affordable (my goal is for you to have this cool bravery reminder!). go my store! anyway the idea of printing this (sort of)uplifting-message-illustration on a pennant came to me while I was browsing my print on demand provider for some cool t-shirt to print! and while I was there I also updated some new items in my shop because I found a cool plain journal to print and… (suspence) I also made a GRAPHIC JOURNAL! ! I mean an actual journal where everyone can write&draw! go my store! speaking of GRAPHIC JOURNAL CLUB: in this moment the Graphic Journal  is very present in my life! back in June I proposed a Graphic Journal Summer Challenge and on   the Facebook group there is a cool momentum going between all the Graphic Journal artists. it’s so cool to see everybody’s art! actually GJ it’s been present in my life for a while… I’ve been keeping a Graphic Journal since 2000 and for me it is an important practice for nurturing  an inner space for positive and a personal growth. I gave the first Graphic Journaling classes in person, between 2015 and 2018 but it was back in April 2020 -when we where in lockdown- I felt it would have been a good idea to share my practice on ZOOM also for people who weren’t in my very same town. Since then a lot of people enjoyed the Graphic Journaling practice and since April 2020 it’s always a big 1 hour and a half in which we start with a meditation, then we do a grounding self portrait practice. and then the class, each time a theme will guide our inner exploration to arrive at the end of the class (at least a little bit) transformed and uplifted. if you want to dig deeper, go check the very early Graphic Journaling classes in free access on my YouTube channel . you think you “can’t draw”? trust me, I will show you that this is just some judgement we trow on ourself. every kid draws but then some of them stop and other continue. why? because of this fu#*in judgment that says “stop! you can’t draw “ you can also come to a live Graphic Journal Club class: BCS I’m opening a class on donation! it will be Sunday August 13 at 6h30PM CET! if you are interested by the DONATION BASED GRAPHIC JOURNAL CLUB click HERE!  (up here a little course I followed on Therapeutic Art,  I’m  studying to learn more skills . I don’t do this for commercial purpose (my job is tattooing and drawing for T-shirts et silly things and not teaching) but I do it  because I feel driven to it. Is it weird to say I feel driven to it? Anyway I enjoy preparing) ok I hope that this little update was nice for your reading. it’s August and I’m leaving to Italy in a week (again. because I was there also in July, for Bande De Femmes festival and for a tattoo guest) and I’m very happy! I hope that you’re spending good sunny moments, trying to eat one watermelon a day. and if your moments aren’t sunny (weaterwise or moodwise) remember that you’re loved (I have a Telegram Channel from where I send you love messages, if you want to receive them)  I hope to see you at the Graphic Journal Club! XXX Nicoz

Or How/Why Continue Enduring Pain Anyway ??? This morning I had a dentist appointment and I miss it because I arrived 7minutes late and -while I was 1 minute to the dentist door- I decided to call him to say “hey sorry I’m late”. And he said “well MADAME it’s too late now, I can’t start my day late”. At this point I was quite in front of his door but the MADAME sent me back into a shame spiral. It got my energy and power away. I felt small and just turned back and didn’t pass through the door. I’m 100% sure that, if I didn’t call for this 7 minutes late, I could have enter the Dentist studio and show him my Wisdom Tooth and see if all was well. But sometimes I get into shame spirals and I lose myself. I lose myself easily as I lost my wisdom tooth ???? ???? Yes because I endure pain again and again to the point I lose it. I had this pain in the upper right wisdom tooth for months, had 2 cycles of antibiotics too but couldn’t manage to go to the dentist to take the tooth off. I didn’t want to lose a tooth… it felt something harsh to let a tooth go. I didn’t want to cope with the decay I guess. The pain continued for months and I got used to it until the moment I LOST the tooth while chewing on food. It was 4 weeks ago. It came of with some blood and a very little amount of pain (you know like when you lose a milk tooth) and all of a sudden the pain I endured for months was OVER. Just like that, effin OVER. I called my dentist to tell him and he said “it came off on it’s own? Good for you!” But I scheduled an appointment anyway. First available space in 4 weeks, that is to say this morning. And I arrived late, with zero pain and a tooth in my pocket. And I didn’t enter the door because I’ve been called *Madame* . What’s the point of all this? Probably there’s no point. Maybe I just wanted to show my tooth (patience the picture will come) Or I wanted to say that personally I get used to pain… all the pain like with my herniated disc for exemple, it’s constant aka chronic and I live with it. The same pain year ago would have nailed me in bed all day and now I just keep going. Pain is part of my life and it makes me feel the perimeter of my body. And I got used to it. it’s like in a long tattoo session (as a client not as a tattooer) when you want to end it but you stay and resign and go to the end of it. Anyway, TEETH are a cool thing to draw. This is the reason I put this coloring sheet here for you. Maybe they also can get tattoo flash? I don’t know: one thing is important, this is my own experience but just because I (think I) can endure pain it doesn’t mean you have to endure pain daily too!! If your wisdom tooth hurts go to the dentist (and arrive on time or you will miss your appointment like me). It’s ok to look for the least painful option (even when you get tattooed. You want to rock a numbing cream / a hypnosis session in your headphones / some CBD? Go for it) “If pain doesn’t scare you remember that I can tattoo those -or other- drawing on your skin. I mostly tattoo in La Rochelle where no one goes ever. This is the reason I do guest. I selected to big cities north and south enough for you to reach. I’ll be from July 11 to July 20 in Rome (only Italian city) and from November 20 to November 25 I’ll be tattooing in Paris.” And speaking of enduring pain again and again & less painful options in everyday life , Let’s talk about the pain of communication when it’s a matter of survival (aka work matters) like posting on social media at “the right times” (aka NEVER for me, I always blow my instagram post because I post at times far from the algorithm dictat) or WORST: answering emails/WhatsApp/messenger/DM to the lovely people who ask to get tattooed by me. I have this attention disorder and sometimes (often!) for me is very difficult to replay text and mails as soon as I receive them… Not because I don’t care! But because it’s like I have to wait the “perfect moment” to answer, a moment in which I would be totally present and able to take notes about the project and while having a calendar at hand to check the dates. aka, I always replay to tattoo messages after MONTHS. so I deduced to fuckin end the pain!!! I decided to AUTOMATE most of this : I now use a brand new way of contacting , an app called encre.me me for requesting a tattoo that is painless for me but also for you!! for you because you will not wait weeks/months for an answer and for me, well because all the messages arrives in the same place and I have references, contact, names for each project. so to propose/requested a project or for even reserving a tattoo flash, it will be fast and PAINLESS!!! so from now on please go to my Encre.me profile! https://encre.me/strangeland-x-nicoz-balboa and if you’re a tattooer, here’s a parrainage link just for you ???? (not really sure what this mean, maybe is a faster way to subscribe) Ok if you read up to this point you deserved to see my wisdom tooth here: Cool right??? Ok it’s time to say good bye For all the infos and things I didn’t say remember here you can find: Info about Graphic Journals/ Graphic Journal Club My shop and all the rest of the site bye bye love ❤️ Nicoz follow me also on instagram 

Hello Graphic Journal Maniacs ???? I recently started practicing crossfit and yoga again after my 2 months stop -after surgery- and it’s fucking hard. The thing is: Coming back to a practice after a long pause is difficult because you may feel like you had a step back and that you’re starting from level 0. Your skills are still there but the body may need a minute to catch up, to get back a little bit strong and flexible . And it’s frustrating and it’s difficult to show up everyday for something that’s hard -and on purpose-! But sticking to the practice makes it precious and delicious. I don’t know why I talk about that, probably because I would like to do a parallel with the Graphic Journaling Practice … but in this case is not the body that needs to catch up but the idea that taking the time for this practice will MAKE YOU HAVE MORE TIME. At Least for me it goes like this: I’m in a good Graphic Journaling momentum, taking time to draw and write daily to have an introspection moment that will make me feel good the whole day (or will make me sleep well if I do it at night). Then life happens and I miss one day, I struggle to make time the next day and I wake up 15’ late (because I snoozed)… Frustration builds up and I feel “there’s no time “. 4,5,6 days without Graphic Journaling and I’m all over the place. I become not very funny in my family life because I can’t stop thinking “I can’t have time for me” and I resent the ones I love. but in those moments I don’t realize that it’s my own responsibility to make time for me. When I hit the rock bottom I have no choice to set the alarm 10-15 minutes early or to stop scrolling for 10-15 minutes or go out to work 10-15 minutes early so that I can have a me moment in my favorite caffe place in La Rochelle (the going to work a little early works if you live in a crowded home where it’s difficult to have that alone time) . And when I’m back on track time changes, it expands and those 10 or 15 minutes feels like hours (Yes I’m not exaggerating, 10-15 can truly feel like an ETERNITY when you live them to the fullest. think of 10-15 minutes plank or meditation. It’s very long ????????) . And on the good day I can make 10 minutes time maybe twice in the day… but let’s not the cocky Anyway I would like to know from you what are your tips to make space for a daily practice. How do you feel when you skip the practice? And how do you feel when are in a flow state instead ? You can come share on the facebook group or here in the comments? Or in a Graphic Journal Page? Tell me. if you want a monthly appointment to practice Graphic Journal and gain momentum for the whole months, come to the Subscription based class on Patreon

I (WILL) GET OUT OF MY EFFIN’ WAY I was drawing in my graphic journal this message/reminder for myself : “TODAY I WILL FORGET WHAT I THINK I NEED. I (will) TRUST WHAT COMES & I (will) GET OUT OF MY FUCKIN’ WAY” And I thought it could be a cool picture to send to my Graphic Journal Club and in this newsletter. So I decided to take a cool picture, I went to my dining table and begin to arrange my journal in a way that I could take a picture of it for you to have it. And ,while I was there, I saw this beautiful rose in a vase on the table and decided that it could be so fancy to put the rose on the side of the page to get a nice picture… I thought I needed the rose to have the cool picture… But as soon as my hand grabbed the rose, all the petals  came down So I found myself holding a rose  without any petals while all the petals  were scattered on the table Then  I decided to put all the petals in the picture and I guess it’s even cooler with the petals. See? We don’t always know what we need. And being open to the surprises of life make life less miserable to live. of course it’s not always easy! (It’s SIMPLE  but NOT EASY) Because generally speaking we never know what we need and we want things out of fear, scarcity or even trauma.  -we think we want   money but what we actually are seeking is feeling safe because we didn’t felt safe as kids. So maybe we just need to seek the safe options instead of the lucrative options . -we think we want  freedom over a  relationship but what’s it’s actually happening we are traumatized and we fear intimacy. And we need to hear that we can be loved as we are. – we think we want  that one person to love us even if that person  doesn’t love us back  but what we need is this person to leave us so that we can finally learn how to feel whole (and find a person who actually want to be with us). what we need may be painful at the beginning because we are so fucking stubborn on what we want. OMG I’m going far … I’m not even a professional of all those things! . Maybe it’s not like that for everyone but At least for me it’s (been) like that. like Mick would sang back in 1969: No, you can’t always get what you want You can’t always get what you want You can’t always get what you want But if you try sometime you’ll find You get what you need And it’s so true, we want what we think we need but we don’t have a clue . One last example (I didn’t plan to talk about this but here we go) …  for my work as an Artist* it’s often the same. sometimes I say to myself “from now on I will prioritize making comics/books over tattooing” but then I go to comics festival and it feels exhausting while I miss the lightness and comfort of working in my tattoo shop. or like in this moment, I planned a guest spot and NO ONE  book an appointment I swear to DOG N-O O-N-E!!!! WTF? A little back sorry: I planned one week of tattooing in Paris in June (from June 12 to June 17) and for the the FIRST time since I’ve been guest-spotting in Paris (since  2012!!! ) as I was saying:NO ONE BOOK AN APPOINTMENT. I don’t mean I only have 1 or 2 appointments… I mean NO ONE. 3 people wrote me and then ghosted me. 2 wrote and then cancelled the appointment. WTF? this is the first time … I must admit my Ego is still crying. And self doubt got me insomniac for a few week (the old good “I’m not good enough” in loop in my head) the thing is that I must go to Paris anyway because of a medical appointment (to check on my TOP SURGERY result, which are awesome BTW) on June 13 so I had my train tickets already THEN I discovered that on the Friday (June 16 if you follow) of my Parisian guest my Daughter is doing a live show with the Choir (in La Rochelle, not Paris!) So, first thing first I changed my homebound train tickets. Making the guest available dates smaller… Ok. So I had less day to book. I can do it?! I posted again on instagram things like “only 3 spots available, Tuesday Wednesday and Thursday! Don’t miss this opportunity!” STILL NO ONE whaaaaat??? then it hit me: let’s do something else out of my forced Parisian stay AND, I asked on instagram if someone would recommend me a cool bookstore to organize a book signing of PLAY WITH FIRE and the very cool BD NET NATION themselves booked me for the Thursday June 15 for a book signing! so, is it that I thought I want to tattoo but I needed to be in Paris to sign  like millions of jillions of copies in a wave of fame???? Ahahah let’s see! for now I’m so happy. I will keep you posted if NO ONE shows up (ah!) No, you can’t always get what you want You can’t always get what you want You can’t always get what you want But if you try sometime you’ll find You get what you need by the way: I still have one spot available for tattooing on June 13 (after or before my medical appointment) and on June 14. If NO ONE will come I will go to the Louvre. thanks for reading email. take care bien à vous, Nicoz *Artist= at my level means: someone who work and make a living with *artistic* jobs (for me is drawing for tattoos and illustration + drawing & storytelling for my comics) down here few things I should have written/link instead of talking about… I don’t even know what: IF YOU ARE IN PARIS ON JUNE 15 I’ll be signing PLAY WITH FIRE en français de 16:30 à 19:30! passez me voir et amenez moi des cookies IL MIO LIBRO TRANSFORMER IS OUT Se non l’avete ancora fatto accattatevillllo (reference anni 90) anche dal sito di Oblomov: https://www.oblomovedizioni.com/libri-transformer.php AND IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN GETTING TATTOOED BY ME Well, if you aren’t “NO ONE” and you want to come in France get tattooed I’m using a platform reservation. The site gives the choice between french and English, once you clicked on “proposer un projet” https://encre.me/strangeland-x-nicoz-balboa La Rochelle (Always) / Paris (June 13,14) / Rome (July) I MOVED STORE now it’s happening on my website, here: https://www.nicozbalboastudio.com/store/ ABOUT THE GRAPHIC JOURNAL CLUB EVEN if In this mail I didn’t wrote  much about the Graphic Journaling practice and the Graphic Journal Club on Patreon  (subscription based monthly class) , please remember that -if you too like to have a Graphic Journaling practice and if you want to share with others Artists – there is the : Graphic Journal Club Facebook Group ! It’s free! AND IF YOU LOVE RECEIVING LOVE MESSAGES Or other quick new from me (out of social media) come to the TELEGRAM group (or if you think Telegram is useless please tell me an alternative platform )

I’m here Living la vida stickers I’ve plastics stickers on my hand and all over my chest. Actually under this transparent plastic stickers there is a needle (hand) and a gauze (chest). Under the chest gauze: stitches. So maybe it should be Living la vida STITCHES! And now it’s rest time for me while I enjoy this painkillers while drawing on my graphic journal while watching Pedro Pascal ???? in The Last Of Us. about The Last Of Us: Usually I’m very afraid of Zombie’s genre but I can make a little exception. Expecially if the Zombies we talk about are extremely beautiful, they quite almost seems weird contemporary ceramics. ???????????????? have you seen this show? Ok so maybe the title should be: Living La vida BLOOD JARS? anyway, since I paused my @nicoz_balboa Instagram in order to recovery I still want to share drawings with you. I hope this gothic blood ???? graphic is ok with you. I hope you enjoyed those silly pages. Probably as soon as I’m better I will post some more. But for now I enjoy being at rest. ???? since I can’t work or go to postal office I started a preorder for a sticker pack celebrating this new life , you can have them at a special price (yes like I’m Nike, Amazon or something ) no code needed, the discount is already in place buy them on my store click Thanks for being here. I love you (and it’s not the morphine talking)

I woke up at 4am today while I was dying of fear (or anxiety, which is quite the same) and started turning in my bed in discomfort and back pain (and a dog and a love taking all the space •) my top surgery is in less than one month and I have anxiety in how will I manage of keeping STRANGELAND/household/personal/work economics up while don’t working for one whole month ( paying almost 4K medical bills ????) I spent 20 minutes trying to fall back to sleep again and again and then I decided to effing get up. So I made instant coffee, I Graphic Journal a little and then – after feeling a little bit relieved- I went to work on the final revision for my next book (out in Italy in March for Oblomov ????) and Realized that Graphic Journaling is my foundation of peace and creativity. when I want to draw and feel my life I turn to my Graphic Journaling practice and it’s comforting in the moment but also useful when I need to gather informations for future works (books or tattoo for me) maybe you too are awake in anxiety and were looking for some way to gather your energy of center yourself in a place of self love and, maybe , graphic journaling is a good way to do it (even if drawing is not your job). honestly, even if you don’t draw… we’ll, EXPECIALLY if you don’t feel entitled of drawing or calling yourself an artist! You don’t have to believe me, you can try for yourself. how? Here’s how: I thought of doing a Russian Roulette on my YouTube channel and sending you a free Graphic Journaling class to end the week smoothly (as smooth as my voice and skin IN THIS VIDEO since this is a 2020 video and I was on testosterone for just like 2 months OMG ????️•⚧️) I didn’t chose the topic, I just let my finger run and stop randomly, I don’t even remember this class so it’s all a surprise for you AND me: How to start? carve yourself 1h30/2h time. Maybe early morning when you can’t sleep or maybe during lunch break. (Or maybe you can skip the gym ???? just joking, gym is important ) then take your fave journal/sketchbook/notebook & pens get comfy and press play. the rest is going to unfold. And of course if you want more you can always go to my subscription based classes: And don’t forget to post the results on the free Facebook group: Graphic Journaling Club ???? And before we say goodbye, later on the day O handmade 2 new tishirt And they’re available in my shop, which is also here on my  website: https://www.nicozbalboastudio.com/store/ Byebye Xxx Nicoz Selfie with unshaven random facial hair, omg can you believe that? This makes me happy to say “oh gosh I forgot to shave!”. My next dream would be growing a well furnished mustache ????????

during the xmass holiday , with my daughter Mina we made a MIXTAPE!  I mean… a MIX of cool song to bringh us accross 2023 with joy and inspiration (and energy). did we recorded them on an actual tape? well I wish I still had my tape recorder form the 90s but NOPE, we did a Spotify Playlist but we played with cassette and stickers to recreate an actual image … I then printed the cassette image into a card and I used a QR code so people can flash it and arrive directly to the ultimate 2023 playlist! here’s for you, down here,  also the QR code version. you can save both images and print/send them for/to your friends (with the only condition that you don’t change the image plz) you will have about 14 (FOURTEEN) hours of music to enjoy tihs 2023. listen it on spotify I hope you will enjoy the playlist. after the 14 hours of listening (^^) I want know: 1) your fave song in the playlist 2) that one song you were happy to find 3) that  one song you discovered thanks to the playlist 4) that one song who’s missed according to you and before we say goodbye, I want to : 1) BRAG about the fact that I made all the updates to my website by MYSELF. I totally felt like Sandra Bullock in THE NET! ahahaha ( https://nicozbalboastudio.com/ ) 2) I want to show you this new illustration I made (and of course as my top surgery approaches the “boobs/chest” theme is quite preponderant in my works!) One last thing. since I have put the illustration on my store as prints, thshirts and stickers I’ve created a discount code for my Store, use code ”  strangeland25 ” AT CHECKOUT to have 25% off (active for 1 week starting now) shop for it now I’m Happy to help. if you have any question or if you need any help feel free to reach out to me by replying  to this email.

  during the xmass holiday , with my daughter Mina we made a MIXTAPE!  I mean… a MIX of cool song to bringh us accross 2023 with joy and inspiration (and energy). did we recorded them on an actual tape? well I wish I still had my tape recorder form the 90s but NOPE, we did a Spotify Playlist but we played with cassette and stickers to recreate an actual image … I then printed the cassette image into a card and I used a QR code so people can flash it and arrive directly to the ultimate 2023 playlist! here’s for you, down here,  also the QR code version. you can save both images and print/send them for/to your friends (with the only condition that you don’t change the image plz) you will have about 14 (FOURTEEN) hours of music to enjoy tihs 2023. listen it on spotify I hope you will enjoy the playlist. after the 14 hours of listening (^^) I want know: 1) your fave song in the playlist 2) that one song you were happy to find 3) that  one song you discovered thanks to the playlist 4) that one song who’s missed according to you and before we say goodbye, I want to : 1) BRAG about the fact that I made all the updates to my website by MYSELF. I totally felt like Sandra Bullock in THE NET! ahahaha ( https://nicozbalboastudio.com/ )2) I want to show you this new illustration I made (and of course as my top surgery approaches the “boobs/chest” theme is quite preponderant in my works!) One last thing. since I have put the illustration on my store as prints, thshirts and stickers I’ve created a discount code for my Store, use code ”  strangeland25 ” AT CHECKOUT to have 25% off (active for 1 week starting now) shop for it now I’m Happy to help. if you have any question or if you need any help feel free to reach out to me by replying  to this email.    

there’s something changing in my life I mean, as you know, because you are the subscriber of this list and I always talk about it also on instagram AND in my graphic journal, I’m going through a (gender) transition started back in december 2018. I date the beginning of my transition the day I went to this gender therapist and I vocalized out of my head and into the world: “I’m not a woman. I never been. I don’t want to be seen as a woman anymore (but I don’t want my daughter to lose her mother). and I’m a man even if I hate football and mechanics. ” it took me almost two years to start HRT (hormones replacement therapy) and, even if I’m taking testosterone “only” since more than 1 year, the transitioning of my gender -and the world around me- started that day of 3 years ago. my friend and activist Fox Fisher (who’s also a transmasculine fellow) once told me: when you transition, the world around you transitions too. and this is so true. since I started transitioning some friends and lovers left, some others came to my side. also my artistic work changed and I’m still into this trans-creative tunnel and I don’t don’t know what I will find at the end of it. what is sure is that I can’t work the way I worked anymore. the lines and subjects and colors are different and sometimes I feel lost because I can feel that people who follow my work are lost too. like I don’t meet the expectations anymore? or maybe not, because sometimes I’m lost -and I need to pay the bills- and I try to opt for creating what I used to create before & I try to copy myself from the past and the result are often poor not only because the work I make is hybrid and meaningless but also because the response from you that follow my work is low and unengaged (?) so, do this mean that who follow my works is transitioning too? I think so! because I never been so lost and unmotivated in drawing I realize that I always been so SURE of who I was artistically and where I wanted to go (now I don’t fucking know anymore). all my world is transitioning and all my creativity is shifting. so I wait and only do what fells good. I commit to follow what feels good in my body (exemple of the moment: i’m upcycling clothes) without listening what my mind say (“are you kidding me? are you doing f@shion when you live in a town no one knows? you are a punk you don’t have style”). because if I would listen what my mind say I would spend all my days in bed in fetal position. occasionally crying. ???????? and I don’t want that right? so here I am spending my days painting on fabric, sewing and embroidering to find clothes that would fit all gender expression. am I transitioning career? am I wasting time? both of them ? I never ever thought about style or about what to wear. but now that I’m more comfortable in my body I realize that I enjoy wearing clothes. and I’m curious to know how buying clothing feels for you? where do you buy them? what you think it’s missing? hit replay if you want to share it all with me I just came here to tell you that my clothing are now online and, as usual, I start talking about other things!! thanks for reading this old m@n ranting about creativity and art without giving a real solution. I’m excited to share my clothes with you. hoping that you’ll like them and maybe buy and wear them. or also share them with whom you think might enjoy seeing that this kind of clothes exist. you can find them (when available) in the shop section of this website: www.nicozbalboastudio.com/store/ and one last thing! I’m getting burned out with transitioning and thinking about how to manage instagram, networking, working physically at the Strangeland, thinking about social media strategies , drawing etcetera that I was wondering if between you here there is someone who’s a community manager/social media witch-wizard/communication genius (that is also queer/queer friendly and in love with my work) that wanted to collaborate with me. hit me up with a CV and a motivation speech . BYE