I Have Lost A Tooth And I Want To Show It To You

Or How/Why Continue Enduring Pain Anyway ???

This morning I had a dentist appointment and I miss it because I arrived 7minutes late and -while I was 1 minute to the dentist door- I decided to call him to say “hey sorry I’m late”. And he said “well MADAME it’s too late now, I can’t start my day late”. At this point I was quite in front of his door but the MADAME sent me back into a shame spiral. It got my energy and power away. I felt small and just turned back and didn’t pass through the door. I’m 100% sure that, if I didn’t call for this 7 minutes late, I could have enter the Dentist studio and show him my Wisdom Tooth and see if all was well.

But sometimes I get into shame spirals and I lose myself. I lose myself easily as I lost my wisdom tooth ???? ????

Yes because I endure pain again and again to the point I lose it.

I had this pain in the upper right wisdom tooth for months, had 2 cycles of antibiotics too but couldn’t manage to go to the dentist to take the tooth off. I didn’t want to lose a tooth… it felt something harsh to let a tooth go. I didn’t want to cope with the decay I guess.

The pain continued for months and I got used to it until the moment I LOST the tooth while chewing on food. It was 4 weeks ago.

It came of with some blood and a very little amount of pain (you know like when you lose a milk tooth) and all of a sudden the pain I endured for months was OVER.

Just like that, effin OVER.

I called my dentist to tell him and he said “it came off on it’s own? Good for you!” But I scheduled an appointment anyway.

First available space in 4 weeks, that is to say this morning.

And I arrived late, with zero pain and a tooth in my pocket. And I didn’t enter the door because I’ve been called *Madame* .

What’s the point of all this? Probably there’s no point.

Maybe I just wanted to show my tooth (patience the picture will come)

I wanted to say that personally I get used to pain… all the pain like with my herniated disc for exemple, it’s constant aka chronic and I live with it.

The same pain year ago would have nailed me in bed all day and now I just keep going.

Pain is part of my life and it makes me feel the perimeter of my body. And I got used to it.

it’s like in a long tattoo session (as a client not as a tattooer) when you want to end it but you stay and resign and go to the end of it.

Anyway, TEETH are a cool thing to draw. This is the reason I put this coloring sheet here for you. Maybe they also can get tattoo flash? I don’t know:

one thing is important, this is my own experience but just because I (think I) can endure pain it doesn’t mean you have to endure pain daily too!!

If your wisdom tooth hurts go to the dentist (and arrive on time or you will miss your appointment like me).

It’s ok to look for the least painful option (even when you get tattooed. You want to rock a numbing cream / a hypnosis session in your headphones / some CBD? Go for it)

“If pain doesn’t scare you remember that I can tattoo those -or other- drawing on your skin.

I mostly tattoo in La Rochelle where no one goes ever. This is the reason I do guest.
I selected to big cities north and south enough for you to reach.
I’ll be from July 11 to July 20 in Rome (only Italian city)
and from November 20 to November 25 I’ll be tattooing in Paris.”

And speaking of enduring pain again and again & less painful options in everyday life ,

Let’s talk about the pain of communication when it’s a matter of survival (aka work matters) like posting on social media at “the right times” (aka NEVER for me, I always blow my instagram post because I post at times far from the algorithm dictat) or WORST: answering emails/WhatsApp/messenger/DM to the lovely people who ask to get tattooed by me.

I have this attention disorder and sometimes (often!) for me is very difficult to replay text and mails as soon as I receive them… Not because I don’t care! But because it’s like I have to wait the “perfect moment” to answer, a moment in which I would be totally present and able to take notes about the project and while having a calendar at hand to check the dates.

aka, I always replay to tattoo messages after MONTHS.

so I deduced to fuckin end the pain!!! I decided to AUTOMATE most of this :
I now use a brand new way of contacting , an app called encre.me me for requesting a tattoo that is painless for me but also for you!!

for you because you will not wait weeks/months for an answer

and for me, well because all the messages arrives in the same place and I have references, contact, names for each project.

so to propose/requested a project or for even reserving a tattoo flash, it will be fast and PAINLESS!!!

so from now on please go to my Encre.me profile!

https://encre.me/strangeland-x-nicoz-balboa

and if you’re a tattooer, here’s a parrainage link just for you ???? (not really sure what this mean, maybe is a faster way to subscribe)

Ok if you read up to this point you deserved to see my wisdom tooth

here:

Cool right???

Ok it’s time to say good bye
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Nicoz Balboa

I Have Lost A Tooth And I Want To Show It To You