trust

But nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain…

…or at least you can wear a yellow rain coat and going in the rain anyway!

I mean, those days are hard, aren’t they? The end of summer, the pand3mic, the days going shorter and shorter, bills and taxes… sometimes I just want to say to myself “I want it all to stop right now! I can’t take it anymore”! Is it just me Or it happen to you too? (hit reply and tell me).

but then I put all this shitty thoughts in a cosmic garbage can and I send this garbage can out of my window and I watch it bursting into flame and becoming a big cosmic firework diffusing hope and love…

I swear I do this and it’s cool to watch, it’s my own personal firework. have you ever tried doing it? To throw away all those parasite thoughts in a cosmic garbage can? My lover thought me this and I love doing it. Try it and then tell me how does it feel .

and you know what happens next? I start looking around me, I dare to look around me, far and near, and I have the space to make the love enter.

And it feels good.

I start small, I look around and I notice the first ‘thing’ that gives me joy, like my pink socks -that my friend Nini gave me- with dog heads on them. I let myself feel the happiness of having such cool and funny socks. I breath in, thanks for those socks.

Then I see my cup of coffee and I’m happy and thankful for having the possibility of having fresh hot coffee in the morning.

Then I move my sight a little more far… and I see Albert (the rescue dog who adopted me last month) and I remember that our life together feels like a second chance for him and for me. A second chance, this is what we all need. this is what we all want. right? Well I want to take those second chances whenever I fucking want.

and I KNOW that someday will be harder and some other will be easier and that’s like this and I just have to remember to trust. Luckily I tattooed this word on my hand some years ago.

T R U S T

But TRUST doesn’t come naturally… we are so used to control everything that TRUSTING is hard! So here’s for you a quick Exercise:

take your journal (or a post it or a scrap of paper) and a pen.
set a timer for 2 minutes.
write down a list of those times you thought life wasn’t going where you wanted but then, with time, you realized that the “don’t going where you wanted” it was, as a matter of fact, a present!
keep writing down everything that comes to mind (like a grocery shopping list) until the end of the timer
when the timer ends take a big breath and read the list.
smile

I’m going to do this exercise too, right now. Because TRUST takes an active will of being passive. It’s a balance between action and immobility. Between going forward and flying above . And it’s a work you must learn to do for you, on your own. And it’s worthy at the end. Or at least I hope so ????

anyway, thanks for following and supporting my work, for opening this email, for always sending me your positive feedback. Thanks for those human that during the months and the years have bought my art, my prints, my classes, my clothes, got tattooed etcetera… your support mean the world to me. You supporting my work it is what gives me the will to continue creating.

I love you.
Nicoz

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